“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.”
~ Dr. Seuss
To say the last few weeks of my life have been crazy is an understatement. As you know I’ve always used this blog as a bit of self-therapy, so here I go. Am I brave, bored or just broken-hearted?
I have replaced my very well loved yet totaled 2005 Grand Am (yes, I’m aware it was not a BMW) with a slightly older model with higher mileage, 4-door minus the sun roof and get this…. no automatic windows!
But I payed cash and have no car payment. I know a car is just a car, but I did love my little red ride. It wasn’t the sportiest car, but it was about to be all mine with no car payment and no immediate need for repairs. And yet another thing I’ve worked really hard to keep, but lost anyway. Oh well, whatcha gonna do?
Then I lost someone who is very important to me. No, the person isn’t missing or worse, but he has left my life for the time being, or maybe forever. I’m not sure I believe the dumb saying if you love something set it free… yada yada yada. But I know right now it is the right thing as much as I hate to admit it to myself. And as much as I hate to admit it to others, I am terribly heartbroken.
I thought we had something very special, and now I have no idea it is ever going to be a reality. I’m sure some of you say time for a Meet the Exes post here, but the truth is I don’t want to banish him into that category. At least not yet anyway. But here’s one thing I do know. I am an amazing woman and if he’s not smart enough to figure that out, then it is his loss. And as always, I will pick myself up and move on.
Speaking of.. I’m moving on in other parts of my life. I quit my job this week. Some people have said I’m brave, others have said I’m crazy and some simply have no idea what to say. But the people who matter most in my life support my decision, and after all these years I’ve learned to have enough faith in myself. I’m not quite ready to share what my new adventure will be, but I do know I’d love to have you all along for the ride. So stay tuned…
Stylishly yours,
Miss Attitude
Tags: attitude, car crash, dating, Grand Am, heartbroken, miss attitude, Pontiac Grand Am, relationships, single, unemployed
BRAVE! When you face the unknown and still hold your head up high, I consider that very brave. I’m sorry your heart is broken.
All in due time we find answers to the mystery.
You’re awesome.
I always wish the best for my favorite producer
Here’s a quote I always find pertinent:
“The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed.” -Buddha
I’m not a Buddhist but I find comfort when I think of this. I can’t wait to hear what’s next for you. I’m sure it will be great!
I really believe things happen for a reason (sometimes i can figure it out, sometimes i can’t). if the craziness of the past few weeks turns out to be the trigger for changes that lead to long term awesomeness…. well at least you’ll have a good story to tell (or blog ;)).
All the best
Brave.period.
You will make it through whatever is put before you because that’s just how you are. You have a wonderful support system with your friends and family that would make anyone envious.
No matter what happens you will land on your feet and if you don’t you have people supporting you who will pick you up and place you back on your feet. I have no doubt about that.
YOU can do this….ALL of this!
Brave.period.
Brave. As you always have been.
How is any of this brave? To just quit your job with no plan? I’m guessing your not quite ready to share your next adventure because you have no idea what you are gonna do. I see you are also 36, losing your home, and moving in with friends. Then you decide to quit your job in a horrible economy without an immediate backup plan. Sounds pretty cowardly to me. If I were your friend, I’d be pissed that you quit and then ask to move in rent free. What a lazy free-rider.
Bravery would be to actually get your sh*t together, come up with a solid plan to get your life together. And then execute this plan with self restraint and determination even if life sucks for awhile. Not to quit your job on a whim, begs friends for a roof over your head while avoiding making any meaningful changes.
Actually, I do have a plan. I am just not ready to share it publicly on the blog. And anyone who knows me would never ever call me a “lazy free-rider,” but thanks for your feedback.
Thank you all for your support, I really appreciate it. It means more to me than you will ever know.
You are filled with fabulous ideas. Of course, as always (as Laura says), brave and strong. What is it that Raymond does for a living (and a life)that he has so much time to comment on a stranger’s choices. You are right that it is only your closest friends and family that matter.
Hey Raymond,
You sound like a dick.